Prayer For Forgiveness

Beautiful garden, where have you gone?
my self delusions are leaving me in the storm
Taking for granted, all the goodness that I've found
somewhere I lost all, the control came crashing down.

and I pray for forgiveness
look for the answers
cause its hard
for me to pretend
look to my mother
call to the captain
can't you see
this state that I'm in
no one would notice
nobody noticed
cause it's me where it began

beautiful morning, please don't wake me from my sleep
cause I need some comfort, to regain my sanity
I don't want to feel this crazy,
I don't want to feel this guarded
shattered in a million pieces
I'm so broken hearted
no where left to run
no where left to go
so I hope

I pray for forgiveness
look for the answers
cause its hard for me to pretend
look to my mother
call to the captain
cant you see
this state that I'm in?
and no one would notice
nobody noticed
that it's me, where it began
and I pray for forgiveness within

I swear that everyday I feel like my mind is haunting me
I think of every little stupid mistake that has been made
This time I don't have the strength to gather myself
I'm falling to pieces

And I pray for forgiveness
look for the answer
cause its hard for me to pretend
look to my mother
call to the captain
cant you see
this state that I'm in
pray for forgiveness
looking for justice
searching for answers
call to my mother
pray for forgiveness
breaking the silence

nobody knows it, nobody noticed
that it's me
where it began